So this morning I sat down with a cup of coffee, after getting everyone out the door to school. Eva is still asleep.
My eyes are tired. It was a somewhat long night. Andy is out of town, Eva has a cold and didn’t want to sleep.
I don’t know what people did without cell phones. At almost one when I was up with her again I called Andy in Boston. I just needed to hear his voice, while I rocked the crying baby.
And we still talked even when I put her down and crawled into Blake’s bed (because he and Cole were in mine).
We never get time to talk anymore.
And lately I feel like we are realizing that while we put some changes in motion that have been in the works for a while, changes that have us a little uncertain- we know that we are making the best choices for our family.
So as I plop down on the couch, waiting for the little stinker to get up so we can start our day, I open my computer and this picture pops up in iPhoto
Has it really been almost a year and half since that first night we brought home this tiny little preemie and tried to feed her a (tiny) huge bottle that she would barely take an ounce of.
Eat and grow. Eat and grow. My mantra I kept whispering to her.
It was a rough night. A long night. I was scared we took on too much, we were done with babies. But Andy was a rock.
So this morning my tired eyes got a little teary.
Because eat and grow she did. And we can’t imagine life without her. Because our family means everything.
Because the effort we have spent thinking about careers and bosses that are devoid of any integrity is just time wasted when we could be hanging with these cool people.
Because they grow oh so fast.
And they are all that matters.
Aawwww this bought tears to my eyes too. Thanks for sharing Elisa. She is a lucky little girl to have such a beautiful family!
I remember her being that small and following y’alls journey through the process. You know that we have moved from Florida to Cincy and then Cincy to SC all in less than a year. My hubby and I talked about what a rough year it has been. I told him that I look back now and remember what I did during the day in Florida. I would get up and walk 5 miles on the treadmill, straighten up the house, cook every afternoon, and play in my scrap paper. That is the last time that I remember being happy and content. Now don’t misunderstand, I am happily married and we have a great life. It is just all the stuff that we have been through the last year. He said that he felt the same way. We had a routine and a settled life. My son has had to start two new schools in two years, we were not very happy up north, and then we get transferred again. We are a few weeks from moving into our home but I am hoping that by the first of the year, we are settled and feeling normal again.
I know that y’all are going through some things with work and trying to make decisions and I know how hard that is. Just take it a day at a time. That is what I tell myself. One day at a time. Can you imagine going through all that we do if we were not happily married and having that rock beside us?
Sweet beautiful little Eva sure has grown,as I am sure you all have since she joined the family. What a journey it has been for you all. Lucky you, lucky her. Blessed, all of you!
What an excellent blog post, Elisa! Can’t wait to see you and Andy and the kiddos in November.
you brought tears to my eyes! you are so right, family is all that matters. I lost my rock this year, and while it has been tough and sometimes lonely, I have found I am stronger than I think. My son has been my reason to keep going, as I know your children are for you. You have an amazing family, and they are lucky to have you!
“Family means everything”….so true. Wonderful post!
That brought tears to my eyes. What a tiny, sweet baby girl she was. What a blessing. Your family is so full of blessings 🙂
I needed to read this post. I feel a little choked up…sappy, I know. But it’s the honest truth. Thank you for posting this and helping me put so much into perspective in my life.
it goes so fast.
it stinks sometimes.
i wish they stay tiny for longer than they do.
This was such a perfect post, I have tears reading it. It’s wonderful to feel that when you have those rough moments-up all night with a sick baby & you’re on your own. Thank GOD for cell phones is right, they help keep you connected when you really need it. I know it’s been a lifesaver for me. I hope you have had better nights since. Family absolutely means everything, I appreciate the reminder. 🙂 I am sure things will work out with decisions that need to be made.